I've got to give myself shots of B12 once a week. I about had a panic attack when we picked them up from the pharmacy. Yes, I know it's not a big deal. I freaking hate needles. HATE them. I'm going to have Jeff give them to me. I don't know yet where I'll have him stick me. Just thinking about it makes me start to hyperventilate.
Today I started physical therapy. My therapist looks and talks like an ex-drill instructor, so I've got that going for me. He does posses a kindness though, so I'm happy. I'm working on my left shoulder, left knee, and my right arm has tendentious. Today we just went through stretches and exercises. Next time it'll be more intense and he told me to wear good shoes. I guess my cute little gladiator sandals weren't cutting it.
Oh what else? I hate my family. So, yah. They cause a huge amount of stress in my life. I'm not talking about my husband or my kids. Just certain other immediate members that I can't wait to move the hell away from and have little to no interaction with after I leave. I'll have a bunch to talk about with my therapist next Tuesday.
Also, I'm stuck at 284. I'm dieting really well, but I worry that I won't be able to get down all the way. I only need to loose 4 more pounds to be at my goal of 10% loss. Weight loss has slowed waaaay down. I knew it would. All you people that wonder why she doesn't lose it "on her own" this is why. I reach 10% and then my body feels like its done.
I have my final appointment before submitting on August 12th. Yay! So excited for that, but at the moment the family stuff is sucking all of the happiness out of me. I wonder how I'm going to cope with that after surgery. Probably get angry, cry, and talk to my therapist. I hope that's what I'll do. I know that I'll have to find another way to cope with things because food will be out.
Sorry I'm being negative, I'm having a really off day. Hopefully I'll have a turn around pretty quick.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Seattle Part Three
The Seattle Science Center! It was....not that great. A big letdown for us. An expensive letdown for us. It had two redeeming features, but not worth the price of admission in my opinion. The two good things were the butterfly room and the Beatles laser light show, which we paid extra for. I wish we'd just paid to see the light show and went to the music experience across the street or anything else really. I think if the girls were maybe 5 years younger they would've liked it. Maybe. It seems like they got rid of a bunch of things, it's just not the way I remember it.
First good thing, the butterfly house was humid and hot, just the way I like it. Someday I'll move to Florida and have it all the time. ::sigh:: Florida. ::sigh::
I had a butterfly land on me and stay put for almost the entire time we were in the house. It itched like crazy! That butterfly should count itself lucky I didn't smack it off. It was tickling soooo bad! The girls thought it was REALLY COOL. I guess it was worth it then. It was also on my purse arm. I know you other heavy girls understand that you need to switch the purse arm every little bit.
After the science center we headed to spend a couple of days with my uncle Mike and his lovely wife Cindy. We had amazing donuts and held our first family karaoke party. Um, if you ever want to hear something so beautiful it'll bring a tear to your eye, have me sing Love Hurts for you. ::wink:: It's magical, oh yeah.
Science Center Photo's---
So, there really aren't very many pictures from the science center. Here's one of Jeff at the zoo.
First good thing, the butterfly house was humid and hot, just the way I like it. Someday I'll move to Florida and have it all the time. ::sigh:: Florida. ::sigh::
I had a butterfly land on me and stay put for almost the entire time we were in the house. It itched like crazy! That butterfly should count itself lucky I didn't smack it off. It was tickling soooo bad! The girls thought it was REALLY COOL. I guess it was worth it then. It was also on my purse arm. I know you other heavy girls understand that you need to switch the purse arm every little bit.
After the science center we headed to spend a couple of days with my uncle Mike and his lovely wife Cindy. We had amazing donuts and held our first family karaoke party. Um, if you ever want to hear something so beautiful it'll bring a tear to your eye, have me sing Love Hurts for you. ::wink:: It's magical, oh yeah.
Science Center Photo's---
So, there really aren't very many pictures from the science center. Here's one of Jeff at the zoo.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Seattle Part 2
This was zoo day and I swear to you that after walking around for 5 hours, I better have lost some weight!
I've been reading over my Dr. notes. Interesting. I need to have iron infusions and B12 shots. I also need to get some vitD and calcium going before the surgery. Called the surgeon's office to find out what the deal is on the insurance scenario. Did they submit? Will they insist I see another dietitian? Did the office coordinator talk to my insurance advocate? I left a message and haven't heard back and now it's the weekend. It's annoying but I just keep saying, tomorrow is another day! I have an inner Scarlett O'Hara that I channel every once in a while.
Here are the pictures from the zoo. Just so you know, my favorite animals are the hippos, otters, and the orangutans. I also love people watching and there was a bunch to be had at the zoo.
Sometimes I don't think this is a very good weight loss surgery blog. I'm putting too much personal stuff up and pictures, but not enough weight related things. I do want to get a bunch of fat Heidi pics up so I have a bunch to look back on and marvel at my plumpness. Never again will I look and feel this way. That's how my vacation pics pertain to weight loss. I have a substantial butt and I did before I gained all of the weight too. I hope I have a round tukas after I loose it all again. I also hope I retain some of my boobidge too. It's quite plentiful too.
Yes, the otter is holding my purse for me. If I had a patronus, it would either be a river otter or a hippopotamus. If you are a nerd like me, you'll know what that is. I don't care if it's the same as Hermione's, I'm older so mine would've been first.
I've been reading over my Dr. notes. Interesting. I need to have iron infusions and B12 shots. I also need to get some vitD and calcium going before the surgery. Called the surgeon's office to find out what the deal is on the insurance scenario. Did they submit? Will they insist I see another dietitian? Did the office coordinator talk to my insurance advocate? I left a message and haven't heard back and now it's the weekend. It's annoying but I just keep saying, tomorrow is another day! I have an inner Scarlett O'Hara that I channel every once in a while.
Here are the pictures from the zoo. Just so you know, my favorite animals are the hippos, otters, and the orangutans. I also love people watching and there was a bunch to be had at the zoo.
Sometimes I don't think this is a very good weight loss surgery blog. I'm putting too much personal stuff up and pictures, but not enough weight related things. I do want to get a bunch of fat Heidi pics up so I have a bunch to look back on and marvel at my plumpness. Never again will I look and feel this way. That's how my vacation pics pertain to weight loss. I have a substantial butt and I did before I gained all of the weight too. I hope I have a round tukas after I loose it all again. I also hope I retain some of my boobidge too. It's quite plentiful too.
Yes, the otter is holding my purse for me. If I had a patronus, it would either be a river otter or a hippopotamus. If you are a nerd like me, you'll know what that is. I don't care if it's the same as Hermione's, I'm older so mine would've been first.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Seattle Part One
Last week I went to visit with Dr. S. It went pretty good. I was down 9lbs, I wanted to be at 10. The nurse was praising me on my weight loss and said that I just needed to be in the 5-10 lb range. (record scratch) What was that? I've been beating myself up over not reaching 10 and I could've been proud with 5?!? Yeeeeaaah. MmmmK. Next.
He and his office were saying how they were going to submit for approval for the surgery that day. (record scraaaatch) Hold the phone, you're going to do what now? It's not been 90 days. Do you people know what the rules are for my insurance? Are you trying to get a denial just for fun? I know you can just re-submit, but it's kind of hard to hear that you've been denied for something that you've desperately wanted for the last 10 years or so.
I've also been going round and round about my need to see a dietitian. I've talked to my insurance advocate and she has assured me that I don't even need to see one. Hell, the fact that I saw one ONCE is more than enough. Dr. S still won't listen. The day I was there he had his dietitian in the office and wanted to see if I could meet with her. Sure. Not for another couple of hours? No, we have plans. Aaaand we did. I also didn't want to spend another 25$ on something that I KNEW I didn't need. Besides, I had an appointment with the aquarium that I'd made weeks earlier and I couldn't cancel on the fish...or the otters, they're my favorite. Squee!
I left them the name and number of my advocate that works for my insurance company. She specializes in bariatrics and the approval for them them. She's also a nurse and from North Carolina. She's not one to be messed with and she knows her stuff. I also happen to love her accent.
I really need to follow up and find out what they decided to do. I really should call them today...where's my phone?
OK, we went to the aquarium and it was cool. Not as cool as it used to be. They used to have demonstrations and shows, but budget cutbacks have been bad. Too sad. :( I am going to share some pictures though. I can't do it on my family blog because I don't post pictures of myself. I'm still too embarrassed of old high school people seeing me. I know, dumb. I'm going to therapy to help me for it among many other things.
For all of the years, and I've been going since I was 3, I have NEVER touched a starfish in the petting pool at the aquarium. When I was little, my parents would try to get me to do it and I was terrified! I was sure it would spring to life, come at me like a ninja with concealed fangs and claws, and latch on to my hand like something from a James Cameron movie!!! I have an overactive imagination. That's an understatement.
He and his office were saying how they were going to submit for approval for the surgery that day. (record scraaaatch) Hold the phone, you're going to do what now? It's not been 90 days. Do you people know what the rules are for my insurance? Are you trying to get a denial just for fun? I know you can just re-submit, but it's kind of hard to hear that you've been denied for something that you've desperately wanted for the last 10 years or so.
I've also been going round and round about my need to see a dietitian. I've talked to my insurance advocate and she has assured me that I don't even need to see one. Hell, the fact that I saw one ONCE is more than enough. Dr. S still won't listen. The day I was there he had his dietitian in the office and wanted to see if I could meet with her. Sure. Not for another couple of hours? No, we have plans. Aaaand we did. I also didn't want to spend another 25$ on something that I KNEW I didn't need. Besides, I had an appointment with the aquarium that I'd made weeks earlier and I couldn't cancel on the fish...or the otters, they're my favorite. Squee!
I left them the name and number of my advocate that works for my insurance company. She specializes in bariatrics and the approval for them them. She's also a nurse and from North Carolina. She's not one to be messed with and she knows her stuff. I also happen to love her accent.
I really need to follow up and find out what they decided to do. I really should call them today...where's my phone?
OK, we went to the aquarium and it was cool. Not as cool as it used to be. They used to have demonstrations and shows, but budget cutbacks have been bad. Too sad. :( I am going to share some pictures though. I can't do it on my family blog because I don't post pictures of myself. I'm still too embarrassed of old high school people seeing me. I know, dumb. I'm going to therapy to help me for it among many other things.
For all of the years, and I've been going since I was 3, I have NEVER touched a starfish in the petting pool at the aquarium. When I was little, my parents would try to get me to do it and I was terrified! I was sure it would spring to life, come at me like a ninja with concealed fangs and claws, and latch on to my hand like something from a James Cameron movie!!! I have an overactive imagination. That's an understatement.
Well, I'm embarking on a new me. Jeff said the new me should touch a starfish.
I'm soooooo brave. :))
I'm soooooo brave. :))Here are some other fun pics.
SQUEEEEEE!!!
SQUEEEEEE!!!Tuesday, July 5, 2011
4th of July pics
Here are the pics from the 4th. We had a great time at our little water park and my sister in law and her family showed up, totally not planned, but a nice surprise. See that gleaming pasty white skin? It doesn't usually see the sun. It behaved itself and didn't burn. Jeff wasn't so lucky, poor guy. The sunscreen only took in some areas, so he's striped.
We BBQ'd and ate on the patio with our neighbors. Nothing too spectacular, just your typical fare. I did make a delicious strawberry cake dessert. I did have a piece....don't tell my Dr. I figure I won't have much of that kind of stuff for a while. I would like to say it was a small piece thank you. the other lady in the pictures with me is my mom and my neighbor.
Then we lit our illegal fireworks. The girls had tons of sparklers to burn through and they played with roman candles, ground bloom flowers, tanks, and hens. It was good. We did have to go to an empty lot to light off Jeff's apaches. They were just too volatile for a neighborhood, one may have almost hit a car, they were awesome though. I'm pretty tired in this picture and I would like to have it known that I didn't have any make up on, so don't judge me too harshly. :)
We BBQ'd and ate on the patio with our neighbors. Nothing too spectacular, just your typical fare. I did make a delicious strawberry cake dessert. I did have a piece....don't tell my Dr. I figure I won't have much of that kind of stuff for a while. I would like to say it was a small piece thank you. the other lady in the pictures with me is my mom and my neighbor.
Then we lit our illegal fireworks. The girls had tons of sparklers to burn through and they played with roman candles, ground bloom flowers, tanks, and hens. It was good. We did have to go to an empty lot to light off Jeff's apaches. They were just too volatile for a neighborhood, one may have almost hit a car, they were awesome though. I'm pretty tired in this picture and I would like to have it known that I didn't have any make up on, so don't judge me too harshly. :)
Monday, July 4, 2011
Happy 4th!
I'm going to go swimming today. I've been feeling better everyday and I think I'm up for it. I'll take pictures and post them here either late in the evening or tomorrow.
We are going to a small water park. Then heading back home to BBQ with neighbors and setting off fireworks. I got 72 sparklers so no one can complain about not having enough.
We are going to a small water park. Then heading back home to BBQ with neighbors and setting off fireworks. I got 72 sparklers so no one can complain about not having enough.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Another Meh
Went to the ER last night for the bleeding and cramping mentioned in an earlier post. My abdomen hurts so much I can't stand upright. They gave me something to stop the bleeding, but the cramps are still there. Hurts to walk and really hurts if I have to pee. I'm wondering if I have a bladder infection too? I see the doctor next Friday.
I don't know what to do. Will these problems go away when I lose the weight? I thought I wanted a hysterectomy, but I was reading about the cons of having it so young and paired with my problems and it scared me off a bit. I'm just really anxious to talk to the doc.
I haven't weighed myself. I'm kind of scared to. Last night after getting out of the hospital, dropping off the prescription, waiting for said prescription, we got something to eat. I'm so ashamed...I had a big mac meal......large sized. (covers face in shame) It was good. (back to covering face)
I don't know what to do. Will these problems go away when I lose the weight? I thought I wanted a hysterectomy, but I was reading about the cons of having it so young and paired with my problems and it scared me off a bit. I'm just really anxious to talk to the doc.
I haven't weighed myself. I'm kind of scared to. Last night after getting out of the hospital, dropping off the prescription, waiting for said prescription, we got something to eat. I'm so ashamed...I had a big mac meal......large sized. (covers face in shame) It was good. (back to covering face)
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